hey i took that :)

Who think that a friendship is a one way street and that even if there not putting any effort into the friendship its still your fault when yall stop talking for a little while… Freaking dumbest thing I have ever seen! Grow up and realize your not the center of the universe and that you have to put some effort into keeping a friendship. I’m not the only person you did this to so dont even try to give me that b.s. So have a good life and try to grow up cause your gonna be an adult soon so try to act like one

alexacrumpton:

Yep, those are my favoritest people ever

wow way to get a picture with everyone in it lol jk jk

chamilton267:

I really know how to lose all my best friends.

You havent lost all of them. You just came about this thing the wrong way

Why do I always think of the worst thing possible in every situation? Anytime i get a thought in my head I always make these “what if” statements, and when i start I cant stop! Right now its friends… I feel that my friends that use to be together every single weekend non stop would do anything for each other is just starting to fade away. I feel like im losing one person after another. Right now I dont know why but i feel the person that i was the closet to is starting to fade away also. I never thought it would happen but it seems like it is. It might just be a phase or just my thoughts going out of control or hopefully this isnt it but maybe they really are just fading away. This is so stupid! I want to stop thinkin about it but i cant. This whole post my seem stupid and i might wake up tomorrow and look at this and just be like what was i thinking! But for now this is how i feel. I hope thiings change for the better. At least thats what I pray to god!

A broken image is sometimes what I see
But the hand that made me is the hand that won’t leave me
You’ve begun a good work that only has begun
And you always lead me, lead me to your son
What I want to know everything you are
What I want to see your will for me and I know you’ll show me
And I know you’re calling,and I see your arms stretched wide
And I feel you drawing, drawing me back again
Another day I can spend with you
You turn the pages telling me what to do
And when I feel like I went too far again
You always lead me well you lead me to your hand
Oh what I want to know everything you are
What I want to see your will for me
And I know you’ll show me
And I know I want everything that you want for me
Help me to understand your ways
I know I want everything that you want for me today

This is a song by Jeremy Camp called “I know your calling me”. This song I can relate to today. I have been in a bad relationship with God for a very long time now; and not one person has known about it. Why? Because I’m trevor king… i dont ever have struggles. I am the one that helps people and tells them to do things that God wants them to do. And I have come to realize that I have been saying all of this to people, but I actually havent been following  what i preach to people very well; I mean I have NOT been following what I say at all. I have been distant and in away I have been in hiding from God. I hear him call my name and I just ignore it because he is calling my name at the wrong time. 

Im done trying to live a life being fake to people, and telling them everything in my life is all right. I have crap going on right now that only God will be able to get me out of it. I have realized that I need him, and I have been really stupid and immature lately about listening to him and doing what he ask me. Im done with that though. Im gonna start listening to what he says, im gonna get into his word, and im gonna talk to him… even though he knows what im going through I feel its more personal and more powerful whenever you tell him what stupid thing you have done wrong.

I LOVE MY FATHER AND HIS SON! His son died on a cross for my sins, but yet I find my self every day acting like its no big deal. Well its time for a change in my life… and this time its gonna last. I know I will still have struggles in my life, but this certain thing in my life right now im done with. I have not been a such a strong peace in a long time. Never have I ever felt like I dont ever have anything to worry about. Im calm and happy with my life. God I know its not possible, but I wish my life was like this every day, JUST SAYIN! :)  

“What I want to see your will for me and I know you’ll show me
And I know you’re calling,and I see your arms stretched wide
And I feel you drawing, drawing me back again”

daddyslittleprincess:

Why do you make so many excuses for them? Why cant you understand your gonna get hurt? Why do you think everyone is just as nice as you, and wouldn’t hurt a fly. Why wont you listen to someone who really cares and has seen what you have gone through before… These are just a few questions that…

This right here is why you would be my friend lol

 This is a true statement :)

Why do you make so many excuses for them? Why cant you understand your gonna get hurt? Why do you think everyone is just as nice as you, and wouldn’t hurt a fly. Why wont you listen to someone who really cares and has seen what you have gone through before… These are just a few questions that passed my mind when you told me what you were going through. You might find it to be silly, harmless and not relevant because its in the “past”, but for real it isn’t silly or harmless or irrelevant. Dang! I will not let you get hurt by someone else; you might giggle when you read this but I’m serious. I felt horrible hearing about your past and i wish i was there for you at the time. I wish i could have helped you through the crap that you had to go through. But i wasn’t in your life at the time, but now i am and i see a similar(but completly different at the same time) path your going down now. And i will not let you torcher yourself with this nonsense. This is definitely a “WHAT THE HAIL!” moment for me. Please see what i see, and please don’t let me see you get hurt. Because if i see you get hurt, all hail will have broke lose on them.  

Life has been pretty good, mainly because nothing has gone wrong and i havnt had school this week lol. I have had alot of time to think about my life, which is a good thing and bad thing. I dont wont to be one of those people who over think everything and end up makin things that are perfectly fine bad, but now that i “think about it” i feel i havnt done anything wrong. After all this time though i have found out that there is someone in my life right now that I care about more than any other person in the world. She has been there for me just as much as i have been there for her. I care about her so much and i dont want anything to ever happen to her. I love her, and i have feelings for her but i know its not the same feelings for me. But im ok with that, I want her to be happy and i hope this post doesnt make anything awkward cause i know she has been going through enough lately

So I just woke up and I feel really good. Not everything is the way i want it to be, but I have no control of what happens its all up to God. I am gonna stop with the worrying, and start with living my life to the fullest. I have awesome friends who would do anything for me and I know they will help me get through my worries of not knowing the unknown. Today seems like its gonna be a good day, but we will see.